He knew somewhere in his brain that none of those were reasonable. But they stayed close to him, swirling around his mind as the tendrils of panic continued to coil around his chest, constricting his breath as he continued to stand there, feeling the urge to flee, to escape this somehow, and yet he was still rooted here, body trembling as memories mixed with the present with perfect and merciless clarity. And physically, there became less and less of a divide between the past and the present as well, reality having left the chat quite a bit ago. Everything was the same as it was. The familiar hum of a room around him filled with consoles, the blurred vision as the scenes out the window slowly faded, and the warm, wet streams of tears falling across his cheeks that were the obvious source of said blurred vision. Everything was the same.
There was a brief look over at Mo, though as soon as he recognized him he looked away, and the thoughts got louder in his head. What if someday later, it was him? He wanted to say something, though, a gasp of his breath returning preceding much more shallow breaths as he tried to think of something to say to the other man, something to say at all, but nothing ever came. He felt stuck, and yet all parts of him were moving at a speed more than what was normal. The breathing, the heartbeat, the shaking - it was all a lot more than it should have been, and yet it was so much the same. No words, all thoughts, head full.